OFFICIALLY UNMARRIED

Unmarried seems so much nicer...I hate the word divorce. However you put it, Brad & I are officially there. I went to court & finalized it today. It was a very surreal experience...I have NEVER been in a courtroom before. My attorney is a very nice guy & the judge was as well. It was very quick and painless.

I am relieved that this is over. Being in limbo for two months is not fun. I hate that things ended this way...no one ever gets married hoping for a divorce. I hope that Brad can come to terms with his demons for the kids sake...and so that he can be happy. I don't think he knows what it is to be truly happy...

I hate that I have lost my life. No, I didn't lose my actual life but I did leave a life behind. I am no longer a wife...I have moved away from my friends & peers...I have left that life behind. I gave up my beautiful home...I will lose friends just due to lifestyle. No one is to blame...it is just how it goes. It is hard...

God doesn't close doors without opening new ones...I know that. He has opened a couple & I am excited to find out where they lead....

Thank you for all the prayers...they have been felt. Please continue to pray for all of us...especially Bishop...he is having a hard time.