Monday, July 17, 2006

"With God, all things are possible..."

That's Mark 10:27, for the record. It's what we are clinging to at the moment. It is nothing new...it is a verse that I always live by but it has a lot more meaning when a true miracle is our only hope. The news is not good...it is definitely cancer, we just don't know what kind yet. Without the pathology report the doctor can't say much about options but she has suggested that if it is bad as they suspect then there really are no options. And honestly, if they suggest treatment my grandmother may not do it...she battled cancer once before in the 60's & it was REALLY hard on her & my grandpa so I don't know that she would be a willing participant. I was okay on Friday & Saturday. She was still unconcious & it didn't seem like my Mama in there. On Sunday (& this is somewhat of a miracle in itself) they were able to wake her up. And they did it much more quickly then they thought they could. By the time we left yesterday evening, she was squeezing my hand & telling me that she loved me. She was a WHOLE lot more alert than they thought she would be. Today will be the hard day...they will have to tell her all of the horrible news...I think they thought they wouldn't have to until the end of the week but she is a VERY strong lady & is fighting harder than they thought possible. The doctor made the comment that she has only seen two cases worse than hers & they aren't sure how she walked into the hospital. She is TOUGH!!! I found out lots more talking to my great aunt this weekend. Apparantly my grandma has suspected something is bad wrong for a LONG time. Two Christmas's ago she began telling my aunt where the presents were if something happened to her before then. She did the same thing last Christmas. When she got so down in the last month, she apparantly wrote her own obituary & picked out photo's for a slide show. Crazy lady...she is always such a planner...even to the last minute:). We will have a better idea of what is to come on Thursday. The doctor's all come together to form a plan of action. My grandfather is doing really well considering. Please continue to pray for us...this will be a REALLY tough week. She doesn't want to see me & that is hard...I know it is because she doesn't want me to remember her like this. We are praying for a miracle...Brad's cousin said it best when she said she was praying for quick healing or that she will go home to be with Jesus quickly. I cannot imagine life without her but I am okay with either...I just want her to be happy & whole. She is just so amazing...I think she held out to see my cousin Katie graduate & to hold Shayden...she did both & then she went downhill FAST. I just thank God that I have had her this long...& I will keep praying that I get to keep her longer. It is all in His hands & I know that no matter what it will all be okay. God has already shown His grace through her strength & determination. And I know He will not abandon us now...

If you have time, there is a new blogger among us....my cousin, Lindsey. She wrote about the same situation & had some beautiful insight...
www.lindseyd530.blogpsot.com or Dollins Days on the left.

Thanks for all of the prayers....love you all!

2 comments:

Lindsey D. said...

AMEN! WE CAN PRAISE GOD WE GOT TO SEE HER AND YOU COULD TALK TO HER. GOD WILL TAKE GOOD CARE OF HER EITHER HERE OR WITH HIM IN HEAVEN! SHE IS SUCH AN AMAZING WOMAN AND I WILL ALWAYS ADMIRE HER! GOD HAS BLESSED US BECAUSE WE HAVE HAD HER ALL THIS TIME. JUST KNOW I WILL KEEP PRAYING AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING I AM JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY.

Susan said...

Yes, with God all things are possible - our family is a true testament to that. When my dad died, I kept remembering that our 'days on this earth are numbered'...from the moment of our birth, only God knows how long we will be here...He is always in charge. We were not ready to let my dad go, but God knew that it was time, and He called daddy home. It is hard to lose a loved one - there is nothing easy about it. I will keep you in my prayers, and will pray for God to watch over your Grandmother...she sounds like a remarkable woman.